This is the first official week of my maternity leave, the doc sent me on leave last Thursday afternoon but the rest of Thursday and Friday were kinda filled with handing things over, emptying my inbox, sending out “out of office” messages, hospital check-ups etc. and I haven´t gotten a minute to get bored yet. But today is the first day where I officially shouldn´t do anything for my corporate job anymore (although I probably will secretly check if there´s still emails coming in or not).
So today is the first day of not having anything to do until I am giving birth and it freaks me out. It scares me because being on maternity leave kinda implies that this giving birth thingy is coming close (iekkkk). And it scares me because, control freak and busy bee like I am, I am not sure I can do with 5 weeks of doing “nothing”. So, yep, it also freaks me out because I am afraid I will be bored like crazy.
I know it´s a true luxury to already stop working 5 weeks before my due date and to have this time to rest and to completely disconnect before baby #2 is here (with L I worked until the last day and C had to send messages from the hospital to my manager I couldn´t make it to the meetings and after giving birth I had to forward emails / documents because we hadn´t done any handover yet….obviously, not ideal) and I am truly grateful that here we have the opportunity for paid leave before and after giving birth. Butttt, I don´t like being useless or doing nothing so I am kinda freaking out here.
And as a result, I made a huge to-do list for myself of everything that has to happen before giving birth, but I wouldn´t be me if half of the things of that list are already ticked off…. Writing the envelopes for the birth announcements? Yep, a great activity for my maternity leave but already did that last week during a Netflix evening. Washing and organizing all the baby clothes? Done. Writing blogs in advance for the freelance clients I have? Check until end of February because you never know if this baby will be early or late. Cleaning all the kitchen cabinets? Done, and the hall closet as well. Looking for flights for Easter and the summer? In progress. Booking a massage and lots of lunch dates with friends because toddler in daycare and no day job = winning? Already in the diary.
The only thing on that list I keep procrastinating is packing that hospital bag, because you know, although I am on maternity leave I still prefer to pretend my due date is quite far away ;).